W Paul Pulsipher - Hard For Me Lyrics

Little did I know when I left home
The struggles I would face.
Thick, black shadows in my mind,
The aloneness I would taste.
Had I known what lie ahead
In the suffocating dark,
I doubt I would have trusted
The strength of my own heart
And every time I cried to God
Begging for relief
He would light my way just enough
To allow me to see
There was always a wise purpose
Why the Lord asked hard things of me
And in the end each time I'd realize
The divine design in what had to be
And the longer I held tight to Him
The more clearly I could see,
With every joyful change of heart
Why it had to be so hard for me
Once I knew my faith was mine
And not just second hand
I thought that I had life figured out
But I had yet to stand
Against the sting of constant strife
For many years to come
Only learning later
Why it had to be done
And every time I cried to God
Begging for relief
He would light my way just enough
To allow me to see
There was always a wise purpose
Why the Lord asked hard things of me
And in the end each time I'd realize
The divine design in what had to be
And the longer I held tight to Him
The more clearly I could see,
With every joyful change of heart
Why it had to be so hard for me
Every bitter, sleepless night
Every futile, pointless fight
With every failure on my part
To mend her broken heart,
So many unresolved dead ends
All the painful tears we shed
I didn't know it at the time
The joy of God's design
There is always a wise purpose
Why the Lord asks hard things of me
And in the end each time I realize
The divine design in what has to be
And the longer I hold tight to Him
The more clearly I can see,
With every joyful change of heart
Why it has to be so hard for me