Metora Cliffs - Alluvion Lyrics

I'm barely floating on an ocean full of hopeless
Thoughts foreboding, focus, y'know I hope you don't notice
That growing in my conscience is a phobia showing
I'm not evolving enough if I'm totally honest
I take notes I'm lacking in common knowledge
I hope to hold my own now I'm no longer in college
I hope to hone my skills but I'm still overly modest
Cos honestly your honesty has drained my positivity

I'm criticized for being who I know I've always been
I wanna escape this cage but no one wants to trust me with the key
Never moving forward so it seems I'm trapped in purgatory
And not allowed to fail so I can't even be subsidiary
I'm still not ready what the hell has life been teaching me?
When I'm so far from steady will your guidance still be reaching me?
A little light headed as I walk upon these feet again
Cos once this crutch is gone I will be left to learn to breath again

Heaven far above, am I hopeless, am I hopeless?
Oh won't you notice, notice, notice?
Have some faith in me, there is hope here, there is hope here
If you just let me breath

So here we are, water's rising
My soul is drifting, away

I can see my home, drifting far away from here, yeah
And I can feel my soul, caving further into me, yeah
Another day, another challenge
I think you'll find that we are not so different
Seeking help is not in fashion
Easier to drown here by myself
And I, can feel myself drifting far away from here

I am alluvium, deposited and dispositioned anywhere
Could drift to an abyss or pure bliss and I still won't find belonging there
Can never bring myself to speak, too scared of what you think, thanks to what you share
I wish I shared more, I wish I cared more about the silent life ahead of me
We'll never know unless you let me go, this burden's mine to face alone
The water may be rising, but you can bet I'll try my best to rise with it, here it comes

Heaven far above, am I hopeless, am I hopeless?
Oh won't you notice, notice, notice?
And so my friends, there's still hope for me
I haven't sank yet, I can breathe

Heaven far above, am I hopeless, am I hopeless?
Oh won't you notice, notice, notice?
Have some faith in me, there is hope here, there is hope here
Oh, I can show this, prove it, I'm here
Heaven far above, am I hopeless, am I hopeless?
Forever drifting this ocean, ocean, ocean?
Have some faith in me, there is hope here, and there is hope here
If I can learn to, breathe