Daniel Adam Holmes - Ashes in the Rain Lyrics

Yo I'm trapped in a room with a bottle and flame
Cigarette smoke like ghosts callin' my name
Mirror shows a stranger hollow and ashamed
Tired eyes lie but the pain stays the same
Thoughts spin like records scratchin' my soul
Every sip every drag just deepens the hole
Demons in my chest got a permanent role
I play host to the dark like it's part of the goal
I scream but no one hears the sound
Just echoes bouncing off the ground
These walls know every lie I tell
My silence is a broken shell
Ashes in the rain I fade again
Tryna numb the hurt but it stays within
Pour it in a glass light another sin
Every breath I take feels like losin' again
I'm fallin' fast through skies of gray
Caught in the storm I can't escape
Ashes in the rain I fade again
Hopin' someday I'll feel whole again
I pace like a wolf in a cage I built
Drunk off guilt drowning in what I've spilt
Anxiety's a leash wrapped tight in my grip
While the past plays loops with a vice-like twist
Yeah I laugh like I'm fine with a crack in my voice
But I'm breakin' inside caught between no choice
Used to dream of the stars now I stare at the void
Chasin' highs through the lows I never avoid
It's not a cry for help it's a war drum beat
Marchin' through the night with blistered feet
Addiction's a thief that steals your sleep
Then sells you lies that you still keep
Yeah I'm tired of the mask and the fake relief
Of thinkin' pain's just a phase short and brief
But this hole don't heal it just gets deep
Where secrets rot and memories weep
Don't tell me "it gets better" when I'm knee-deep in despair!
Don't say "just quit" when my lungs beg for air!
Don't act like you know if you've never been there!
I'm not lookin' for pity I just want to repair!
Ashes in the rain I fade again
Tryna numb the hurt but it stays within
Pour it in a glass light another sin
Every breath I take feels like losin' again
I'm fallin' fast through skies of gray
Caught in the storm I can't escape
Ashes in the rain I fade again
Hopin' someday I'll feel whole again
So if you're fightin' that silence I see you friend
You're not alone in the dark where the nightmares bend
We all got scars that we try to defend
But the fire inside can still ascend
Even ashes in the rain... can rise again