The Answers In Between - Board Up The Flood Lyrics

My first love was envy
The reasons too heavy
For any of us to accept
She said she'd make a better boy
I'd give my body and my voice
For years it was a secret I kept
Between me and this Tumblr girl from Nebraska
I could reach out but I'll never ask
I just thought of us today and the dangerous places
We wait when we can't escape
I'd heard the news lately
I'm the story they're chasing
But I found others like me and kept them close
All the million other versions
Of myself that were hurting
All standing in the shower fully clothed
Nobody chooses to need a chosen family
To spend your teenage years bound to someone else's gravity
To need to find strangers who feel the same way
Bonded only by a need to escape
It's like taking a block from the ivory tower
Like giving them support means giving up your power
And you're terrified but you can't board up the flood
When it's already come
Taking blocks from the ivory tower
It's never been about anything other than power
So you board up the flood you board up the flood
But it's already come
So tell them they're worthless
Say they deserve it
They won't change when someone finds out
Treat them like burdens
Don't let them get a word in
Just don't ask why your kid won't talk to you now
They're all they have they'll get hurt
They'll collapse trying to be each other's support
Whatever your rules whatever your surveillance
They won't change they'll just dream of escape