Anybody Have a Map?
(Original Broadway Cast)
HEIDI (spoken)
Have you been writing those letters to yourself?
"Dear Evan Hansen
This is gonna be a good day and here's why"
EVAN (spoken)
I started one
HEIDI (spoken)
Those letters are important, honey
They're gonna help you build your confidence!
EVAN (spoken)
I guess
HEIDI
Can we try to have an optimistic outlook, huh?
Can we buck up just enough to see the world won't fall apart?
Maybe this year we decide we're not giving up before we've tried
This year we make a new start
HEIDI (spoken)
Hey, I know
You can go around and ask the other kids to sign your cast
How 'bout that?
EVAN (spoken)
Perfect
HEIDI (spoken)
I'm proud of you already
EVAN (spoken)
Oh...good
HEIDI
Another stellar conversation for the scrapbook?
Another stumble as I'm reaching for the right thing to say
I'm kinda coming up empty
I can't find my way to you??
Does anybody have a map?
Anybody maybe happen to know how the hell to do this??
I don't know if you can tell
But this is me just pretending to know?
So where's the map??
I need a clue
'Cause the scary truth is?
I'm flyin' blind?
I'm making this up as I go??
CYNTHIA (spoken)
It's your senior year, Connor
You are not missing the first day
CONNOR (spoken)
I already said I'd go tomorrow
LARRY (spoken)
He doesn't listen
Look at him
He's probably high
ZOE (spoken)
He's definitely high
CYNTHIA (spoken)
I don't want you going to school high, Connor
CONNOR (spoken)
Perfect
So then I won't go
Thanks, mom!
CYNTHIA
Another masterful attempt ends with disaster
LARRY (spoken)
Interstate's already jammed
CYNTHIA
Pour another cup of coffee?
And watch it all crash and burn
ZOE (spoken)
Connor finished the milk!
CYNTHIA
It's a puzzle
It's a maze
I've tried to steer through it a million ways
But each day is another wrong turn
LARRY (spoken)
I better head out
ZOE (spoken)
If Connor's not ready, I'm leaving without him
HEIDI & CYNTHIA
Does anybody have a map? Anybody have a map?
Anybody maybe happen to know how the hell to do this??
I don't know if you can tell?
But this is me just pretending to know?
HEIDI
So where's the map?
CYNTHIA
I need a clue
BOTH
'Cause the scary truth is??
CYNTHIA
I'm flyin' blind
HEIDI
I'm flyin' blind
CYNTHIA
I'm flyin' blind
HEIDI
I'm flyin'
BOTH
I'm flyin' blind?
And I'm making this up as I go
As I go
Waving Through A Window
(Original Broadway Cast)
I've learned to slam on the brake
Before I even turn the key
Before I make the mistake
Before I lead with the worst of me
Give them no reason to stare
No slipping up if you slip away
So I've got nothing to share
No, I got nothing to say
Step out, step out of the sun
If you keep getting burned
Step out, step out of the sun
Because you've learned, because you've learned
On the outside always looking in
Will I ever be more than I've always been?
'cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
I'm waving through a window
I try to speak, but nobody can hear
So I wait around for an answer to appear
While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass
I'm waving through a window
Oh, can anybody see, is anybody waving
Back at me?
We start with stars in our eyes
We start believing that we belong
But every sun doesn't rise
And no one tells you where you went wrong
Step out, step out of the sun
If you keep getting burned
Step out, step out of the sun
Because you've learned, because you've learned
On the outside always looking in
Will I ever be more than I've always been?
'cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
Waving through a window
I try to speak, but nobody can hear
So I wait around for an answer to appear
While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass
Waving through a window
Oh, can anybody see, is anybody waving?
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash, or even make a sound
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash, or even make a sound
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash, or even make a sound
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash, or even make a sound
Did I even make a sound
Did I even make a sound
It's like I never made a sound
Will I ever make a sound?
On the outside always looking in
Will I ever be more than I've always been
'cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
Waving through a window
I try to speak
But nobody can hear
So I wait around for an answer to appear
While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass
Waving through a window
Can anybody see, is anybody waving back at me?
Oooh, is anybody waving
Waving, waving, whoa-oh, whoa-oh-oh-oh
For Forever
(Original Broadway Cast)
EVAN:
End of May or Early June
This picture perfect afternoon we shared
Drive the winding country road
Grab a scoop at A La Mode
And then we're there
An open field that's framed with trees
We pick a spot and shoot the breeze
Like buddies do
Quoting songs by our favorite bands
Telling jokes no one understands
Except us two
And we talk and take in the view
All we see is sky for forever
Let the world pass by for forever
Feels like we could go on for forever this way
Two friends on a perfect day
We walk a while and we talk about
The things we'll do when we get out of school
Bike the Appalachian trail or
Write a book
Or learn to sail
Wouldn't that be cool
There's nothing that we can't discuss
Like girls we wish would notice us but never do
He looks around and says to me
"There's nowhere else I'd rather be"
I say "me too"
And we talk and take in the view
We just talk and take in the view
All we see is sky for forever
We let the world pass by for forever
Feels like we could go on for forever this way
This way
All we see is light for forever
'Cause the sun shines bright for forever
Life will be alright for forever this way
Two friends on a perfect day
And there he goes
Racing toward the tallest tree
From far across the yellow field I hear him calling "follow me"
And there we go
Wondering how the world might look from up so high
One foot after the other
One branch then to another
I climb higher and higher
I climb until the entire
Sun shines on my face
And I suddenly feel the branch give way
I'm on the ground
My arm goes numb
I look around
And I see him come to get me
He's come to get me
And everything's okay
All we see is sky for forever
We let the world pass by for forever
Buddy, you and I for forever this way
This way
All we see is light
'Cause the sun burns bright
We could be alright for forever this way
Two friends
True friends
On a perfect day
Sincerely, Me
(Original Broadway Cast)
CONNOR:
Dear Evan Hansen,
We've been way too out of touch
Things have been crazy and it sucks that we don't talk that much
I should tell you that I think of you each night
I rub my nipples and start moaning with delight
EVAN: (spoken) Why would you write that?
JARED: (spoken) I'm just trying to tell the truth
EVAN:
(spoken) You know what? If you aren't going to take this seriously...
JARED: (spoken) Okay you need to calm yourself!
EVAN: (spoken) This has to be perfect, okay?
The emails have to prove that we were actually friends.
They've got to be completely realistic
JARED: (spoken) There is nothing unrealistic about the love that one man feels for another.
EVAN: (spoken) Let's go back.
JARED: (spoken) In fact, it's something quite beautiful.
EVAN: (spoken) Let's go back Jared!
CONNOR: I've gotta tell you life without you has been hard
JARED: (spoken) Hard?
CONNOR: Has been bad
JARED: (spoken) Bad?
CONNOR: Has been rough
JARED: (spoken) Kinky!
CONNOR: And I miss talking about life and other stuff
JARED: (spoken) Very specific
EVAN: (spoken) Shut up
CONNOR: I like my parents
JARED: (spoken) Who says that?
CONNOR:
I love my parents
But each day's another fight
If I stop smoking drugs then everything might be alright
JARED: (spoken) Smoking drugs
EVAN: (spoken) Just fix it!
JARED: (spoken) This isn't realistic at all! It doesn't even sound like Connor!
EVAN: (spoken) Well I want to show that I was a good friend,
Y'know? That I was trying to help him
JARED: (spoken) You are just cute as a freaking button
CONNOR: If I stop smoking crack
EVAN: (spoken) Crack?!
CONNOR:
If I stop smoking pot then everything might be alright
I'll take your advice
I'll try to be more nice
I'll turn it around
Wait and see
It’s all that it takes
Is a little reinvention
It’s easy to change if you give it your attention
All you gotta do is just believe you can be who you want
to be sincerely, me
JARED: (spoken) Are we done yet?
EVAN: (spoken) Well I mean I can't just show them one email
JARED: (spoken) Okay, please stop hyperventilating
EVAN: (spoken) I'm not hyperventilating
JARED: (spoken) You're having considerable trouble breathing
EVAN: (spoken) I'm having no trouble breathing
JARED: (spoken) Do you need a paper bag to breath into?
EVAN: (spoken) I'm not hyperventilating!
EVAN: (sung)
Dear Connor Murphy,
Yes I've also missed our talks
Stop doing drugs
Just try to take deep breaths and go on walks
I'm sending pictures of the most amazing trees
JARED: (spoken) No!
EVAN: You'll be obsessed with all my forest expertise
JARED: (spoken) Ridiculous!
EVAN:
Dude I'm proud of you
Just keep pushing through
You're turning around
I can see
CONNOR: Just wait and see
ALL:
It’s all that it takes
Is a little reinvention
It’s easy to change if you give it your attention
All you gotta do is just believe you can be who you want to be sincerely, me
CONNOR: My sister's hot
EVAN: (spoken) What the hell?
JARED: (spoken) My bad
CONNOR: Dear Evan Hansen, thanks for every note you send
EVAN: Dear Connor Murphy, I'm just glad to be your friend
EVAN & CONNOR: Our friendship goes beyond your average kind of bond
But not because we're Gay
No not because we're gay
We're close, but not that way
The only man that I love is my dad
CONNOR: Well anyway
EVAN: You're getting better everyday
CONNOR: I'm getting better everyday
EVAN & CONNOR: We're getting better everyday
ALL: Hey hey hey hey!
It’s all that it takes
Is a little reinvention
It’s easy to change if you give it your attention
All you gotta do is just believe you can be who you want to be sincerely,
Miss you dearly
Sincerely Me
Sincerely Me
Sincerely Me
Sincerely Me
Requiem
(Original Broadway Cast)
ZOE:
Why should I play this game of pretend?
Remembering through a secondhand sorrow?
Such a great son and wonderful friend
Oh don't the tears just pour
I can curl up and hide in my room
There in my bed still sobbing tomorrow
I could give in to all of the gloom
But tell me, tell me what for
Why should I have a heavy heart?
Why should I start to break in pieces?
Why should I go and fall apart for you?
Why should I play the grieving girl and
Lie saying that I miss you
And that my world has gone dark without your light
I will sing no requiem tonight
LARRY: (spoken) I'm going to bed
CYNTHIA: (spoken) Come sit with me
LARRY: Cynthia
CYNTHIA: For five minutes?
LARRY: I'm exhausted
CYNTHIA: You know Larry, at some point you're going to have to start-
LARRY: Not tonight. Please. I'll leave the light on for you.
LARRY: (sung)
I gave you the world, you threw it away,
leaving these broken pieces behind you
Everything wasted, nothing to say
So I can sing no requiem
CYNTHIA:
I hear your voice, feel you near
Within these words I finally find you
And now that I know that you are still here
I will sing no requiem tonight
ZOE & LARRY: Why should I have a heavy heart?
ZOE:
Why should I say I'll keep you with me?
Why should I go and fall apart for you?
Why should I play the grieving girl and lie saying that I miss you
And that my world has gone dark without your light
I will sing no requiem
Tonight
'Cuz when the villains fall, the kingdoms never weep
No one lights a candle to remember
No, no one mourns at all
They lay them to sleep
So don't tell me that I didn't have it right
Don't tell me that it wasn't black and white
After all you've put me through, don't say it wasn't true
That you were not the monster that I knew,
'Cuz I cannot play the grieving girl and lie
Saying that I miss you and that my world has gone dark
LARRY: I will sing no requiem
CYNTHIA: I will sing no requiem
ZOE: I will sing no requiem tonight
If I Could Tell Her
(Original Broadway Cast)
EVAN:
He said
There's nothing like your smile
Sort of subtle and perfect and real
He said
You never knew how wonderful
That smile could make someone feel
And he knew
Whenever you get bored
You scribble stars on the cuffs of your jeans
And he noticed
That you still fill out the quizzes
that they put in those teen magazines
But he kept it all inside his head
What he saw he left unsaid
And though he wanted to
He couldn't talk to you
He couldn't find the way
But he would always say
If I could tell her
Tell her everything I see
If I could tell her
How she's everything to me
But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell her
If I could tell her
ZOE: (spoken) Did he say anything else?
EVAN: (spoken) About you?
ZOE: Never mind, I don't really care
EVAN: (spoken) No, no, no, he said so many things,
I'm just trying to remember the best ones.
EVAN: He thought
You looked really pretty, er-
It looked pretty cool when you put indigo streaks in your hair
ZOE: (spoken) He did?!
EVAN: And he wondered how you learned to dance
Like all the rest of the world isn't there
But he kept it all inside his head
What he saw he left unsaid
If I could tell her
Tell her everything I see
If I could tell her
How she's everything to me
EVAN & ZOE: But we're a million worlds apart
EVAN: And I don't know how I would even start if I could tell her
If I could tell her
But what do you do
When there's this great divide
ZOE: He just seemed so far away
EVAN:
And what do you do
When the distance is too wide
ZOE: I think I don't know anything
EVAN: And how do you say I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell her
If I could
Disappear
(Original Broadway Cast)
CONNOR:
Guys like you and me
We're just the losers
And we keep waiting to be seen, right?
And no one seems to care
Or stops to notice that we're there
So we get lost in the in between
But if you can somehow keep them thinking of him
And make me more than an abandoned memory
That means we matter too
It means someone will see that you are there
No one deserves to be forgotten
No one deserves to fade away
No one should come and go
And have no one know he was ever even here
No one deserves to disappear
To disappear
Disappear
It's true
But even if you've always been that
Barely in the background kind of guy
EVAN: You still matter
CONNOR: And even if you're somebody who can't escape the feeling
that the world's passed you by
EVAN: You still matter
CONNOR:
If you never get around to doing some remarkable thing
That doesn't mean that you're not worth remembering
But the people who need to know
EVAN: They need to know
CONNOR: You need to know
EVAN: I'll show them
CONNOR: That no one deserves to be forgotten
EVAN:
No one deserves to be forgotten
No one deserves to fade away, to fade away
EVAN & CONNOR:
No one should flicker out
Or have any doubt that it matters that they are here
EVAN: No one deserves
CONNOR: No one deserves
EVAN & CONNOR: To disappear, to disappear, to disappear
CONNOR:
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
All you want is somebody to find you
When you're falling in a forest
And when you hit the ground
All you need is somebody to find you
EVAN: No one deserves to be forgotten
EVAN, ALANA & JARED: No one deserves to fade away
CYNTHIA: No one deserves to be forgotten
EVAN, ALANA, JARED & CYNTHIA:
No one deserves to be forgotten
No one should flicker out or have any doubt
That it matters that they are here
No one deserves to disappear
To disappear
To Disappear
No one deserves, no one deserves, no one deserves to be forgotten
No one deserves to disappear
Disappear
You Will Be Found
(Original Broadway Cast)
EVAN:
Have you ever felt like nobody was there
Have you felt forgotten in the middle of nowhere
Have you ever felt like you could disappear
Like you could fall and no one would hear
Well, let that lonely feeling wash away
Maybe there's a reason to believe you'll be okay
Cause when you don't feel strong enough to stand
You can reach, reach out your hand
And oh, someone will come running
And I know they'll take you home
Even when the dark comes crashing through
When you need a friend to carry you
And when you're broken on the ground
You will be found
So let the sun come streaming in
Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again
Lift your head and look around
You will be found
You will be found
You will be found
You will be found
You will be found
ALANA: (spoken)
Have you seen this?
Someone put a video of your speech online.
EVAN: (spoken)
My speech?
ALANA (spoken)
People started sharing it I guess
And now, I mean Connor is everywhere.
JARED: (spoken)
Your speech is everywhere
This morning, The Connor Project page it only had fifty-six people following it.
EVAN: (spoken)
Well, how many does it have now?
JARED: (spoken)
Four thousand five hundred eighty two
CYNTHIA (Spoken):
Sixteen thousand two hundred and thirty nine
EVAN: (spoken)
I don't understand?
What happened?
CYNTHIA: (spoken)
You did!
ALANA:
There's a place where we don't have to feel unknown
And every time that you call out
You're a little less alone
JARED:
If you only say the word
From across the silence
Your voice is heard
COMPANY:
Even when the dark comes crashing through
When you need a friend to carry you
When you're broken on the ground
You will be found
So let the sun come streaming in
Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again
If you only look around
You will be found
You will be found
You will be found
You will be found
You will be found
Out of the shadows
The morning is breaking
And all is new
All is new
It's feeling awfully empty
And suddenly I see
That all is new
All is new
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not
You are not alone
ZOE:
Even when the dark comes crashing through
When you need someone to carry you
When you're broken on the ground
COMPANY:
You will be found
So let the sun come streaming in
Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again
If you only look around
You will be found
Even when the dark comes crashing through
You will be found
When you need someone to carry you
You will be found
You will be found
EVAN:
You will be found
To Break In a Glove
(Original Broadway Cast)
EVAN (spoken)
This glove's really cool, wow.
LARRY (spoken)
Oh, why don't you take it?
EVAN (spoken)
Oh. No, no, I couldn't.
LARRY (spoken)
Why not?
EVAN (spoken)
Are you sure?
LARRY
I bought this glove a thousand years ago
For some birthday or some Christmas that has come and gone
I thought we might play catch or... I don't know
But he left it in the bag, with the tag still on
(spoken)
You'll have to break it in though, first. You can't catch anything with it that stiff.
EVAN (spoken)
How do you break it in?
LARRY
Well, it's all a process that is really quite precise
A sort of secret method known to very few
So, if you're in the market for professional advice
Well today could be a lucky day for you
(spoken)
Shaving cream.
EVAN (spoken)
Shaving cream?
LARRY (spoken)
Oh yeah. You rub that in for about five minutes, tie it all up with rubber bands,
put it under your mattress, and sleep on it.
And you do that for at least a week, every day, consistent.
(sung)
And though this method isn't easy
Every second that you spend is gonna pay off
It'll pay off in the end
It just takes a little patience
It takes a little time
A little perseverance
And a little uphill climb
You might not think it's worth it
You might begin to doubt
But you can't take any shortcuts
You gotta stick it out
And it's the hard way
But it's the right way
The right way... to break in a glove
(spoken)
With something like this, you gotta be ready to put in the work,
make the commitment. So what do you think?
EVAN (spoken)
I mean, definitely.
LARRY
Some people say just use a microwave
Or try that "run it through hot water" technique
Well, they can gloat about the time they saved
'Til they gotta buy another glove next week
LARRY
It just takes a little patience
EVAN
It takes a little patience
BOTH
Takes a little ?time
LARRY
A little perseverance
BOTH
And a little uphill climb
LARRY
And it's the hard way
But it's the right way
The right way...
'Cause there's a right way in everything you do
BOTH
Keep that ?grit
Follow through
LARRY
Even when everyone around you thinks you're crazy
Even when everyone around you lets things go
And whether you're prepping for some test
Or you're miles from some goal
Or you're just trying to do what's best
For a kid who's lost control
You do the hard thing
'Cause that's the right thing
Yeah, that's the right thing
EVAN (spoken)
Connor was really lucky to have a dad that... uh,
a dad who cared so much about... taking care of stuff.
LARRY (spoken)
Shaving cream, rubber bands, mattress, repeat.
Got it?
EVAN (spoken)
Got it.
LARRY
It's the hard way
EVAN
But it's the right way
BOTH
The right way
To break in a glove
LARRY (spoken)
You're good to go.
Only Us
(Original Broadway Cast)
ZOE:
I don't need you to sell me on reasons to want you
I don't need you to search for the proof that I should
You don't have to convince me
You don't have to be scared you're not enough
'Cause what we've got going is good
I don't need more reminders of all that's been broken
I don't need you to fix what I'd rather forget
Clear the slate and start over
Try to quiet the noises in your head
We can't compete with all that
So what if it's us
What if it's us
And only us
And what came before won't count anymore or matter
Can we try that?
What if it's you
And what if it's me
And what if that's all that we need it to be
And the rest of the world falls away
What do you say?
EVAN: I never thought there'd be someone like you who would want me
ZOE: Well...
EVAN:
So I give you ten thousand reasons to not let me go
But if you really see me
If you like me for me and nothing else
Well, that's all that I've wanted for longer that you could possibly know
So it can be us
It can be us
And only us
And what came before won't count anymore or matter
We can try that
EVAN & ZOE: It's not so impossible
EVAN: Nobody else but the two of us here
EVAN & ZOE: 'Cause you're saying it's possible
ZOE: We can just watch the whole world disappear
EVAN & ZOE: 'Til you're the only one I still know how to see
EVAN: It's just you and me
ZOE:
It'll be us
It'll be us
And only us
And what came before won't count anymore
EVAN & ZOE:
We can try that
You and me
That's all that we need it to be
And the rest of the world falls away
And the rest of the world falls away
The world falls away
The world falls away
And it's only us
Good For You
(Original Broadway Cast)
HEIDI:
So you found a place where the grass is greener
And you jumped the fence to the other side
Is it good?
Are they giving you a world I could never provide?
Well I hope you're proud of your big decision
Yeah, I hope it's all that you want and more
Now you're free from the agonizing life you were living before
And you say what you need to say
So that you get to walk away
It would kill you to have to stay trapped
When you've got something new
Well I'm sorry you had it rough
And I'm sorry I'm not enough
Thank God they rescued you
So you got what you always wanted
So you got your dream come true
Good for you
Good for you, you , you
Got a taste of a life so perfect
So you did what you had to do
Good for you
Good for you
ALANA: (spoken) Why did Connor kill himself?
EVAN: (spoken) Wait what?
ALANA: (spoken)
He was doing better
That's what he told you in every single email
and then a month later he kills himself?
How does that make sense?
EVAN: (spoken)
Why are you so obsessed with this?
You didn't even know him
ALANA: (spoken) Because it's important!
EVAN: (spoken)
Because he was your lab partner?
Or because, I don't know
Maybe because you want to add another extracurricular for your college application
ALANA: (spoken)
Because I know what it's like to feel invisible, just like Connor!
To feel invisible and alone and like nobody would even notice if you vanished into thin air
I bet you used to know what that felt like, too!
EVAN: (spoken)
We need more emails
Emails showing that he was getting worse
This isn't funny!
JARED: (spoken) Oh I think it's hilarious!
I think everyone would probably think it's hilarious
EVAN: (spoken) What is that supposed to mean?
JARED: (spoken) It means you should remember who your friends are
EVAN: (spoken) I thought the only reason you even talk to me is because of your car insurance?
JARED: (spoken) So?
EVAN: (spoken) So? Maybe the only reason you talk to me,
Jared, is because you don't have any other friends!
JARED: (spoken) I could tell everyone everything!
EVAN: (spoken) Great! Go ahead, do it!
Tell everyone how you helped write emails pretending to be a kid who killed himself.
JARED: (spoken) Fuck you, Evan! Asshole
ALANA:
Does it cross your mind to be slightly sorry?
Do you even care that you might be wrong?
Was it fun?
Well I hope you had a blast while you dragged me along
JARED:
And you say what you need to say
And you play who you need to play
And if somebody's in your way
Crush them and leave them behind
JARED & ALANA:
Well, I guess if I'm not of use
Go ahead you can cut me loose
Go ahead now
I won't mind
HEIDI:
I'll shut my mouth and I'll let you go
Is that good for you?
Would that be good for you you you?
HEIDI & ALANA:
I'll just sit back while you run the show
Is that good for you?
Would that be good for you you you?
HEIDI, ALANA & JARED:
I'll shut my mouth and I'll let you go
Is that good for you?
Would that be good for you you you?
I'll just sit back while you run the show
Is that good for you?
Good for you
EVAN
All I need is some time to think
But the boat is about to sink
Can't erase what I wrote and link
Tell me how could you change the story?
All the words that I can't take back
Like a train coming off the track
Cause the rails and my bones all crack
I've got to find a way to
Stop it, stop it! Just let me off!
ALANA, JARED, & HEIDI
So you got what you always wanted
So you got your dream come true
Good for you
Good for you, you , you
Got a taste of a life so perfect
Now you say that you're someone new
Good for you
Good for you
Good for you
Good for you
So you got what you always wanted
Words Fail
(Original Broadway Cast)
EVAN
I never meant to make it such a mess
I never thought that it would go this far
So I just stand here sorry
Searching for something to say
Something to say
Words fail, words fail
There's nothing I can say
I guess I thought I could be part of this
I never had this kind of thing before
I never had that perfect girl
Who somehow could see the good part of me
I never had the dad who stuck it out
No corny jokes or baseball gloves
No mom who just was there
'Cause mom was all that she had to be
That's not a worthy explanation
I know there is none
Nothing can make sense of all these things I've done
Words fail, words fail
There's nothing I can say
Except sometimes, you see everything you wanted
And sometimes, you see everything you wish you had
And it's right there, right there, right there
In front of you
And you want to believe it's true
So you... make it true
And you think maybe everybody wants it
And needs it... a little bit... too
This was just a sad invention
It wasn't real, I know
But we were happy
I guess I couldn't let that go
I guess I couldn't give that up
I guess I wanted to believe
'Cause if I just believe
Then I don't have to see what's really there
No, I'd rather pretend I'm something better than
These broken parts
Pretend I'm something other than
This mess that I am
'Cause then I don't have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it
No, no one can really see
'Cause I've learned to slam on the brake
Before I even turn the key
Before I make the mistake
Before I lead with the worst of me
I never let them see the worst of me
'Cause what if everyone saw?
What if everyone knew?
Would they like what they saw?
Or would they hate it too?
Will I just keep on running away from what's true?
All I ever do is run
So how do I step in
Step into the sun?
Step into the sun
So Big / So Small
(Original Broadway Cast)
HEIDI:
It was a February day
When your dad came by before going away
A U-Haul truck in the driveway
The day was suddenly real
I told you not to come outside
But you saw that truck
And you smiled so wide
A real live truck in your driveway
We let you sit behind the wheel
Good-bye, good-bye
Now it's just me and my little guy
And the house felt so big, and I felt so small
The house felt so big, and I felt so small
That night I tucked you into bed
I will never forget how you sat up and said
"Is there another truck coming to our driveway
A truck that will take mommy away”
And the house felt so big, and I felt so small
The house felt so big, and I
And I knew there would be moments that I'd miss
And I knew
There would be space I couldn't fill
And I knew
I'd come up short a million different ways
And I did
And I do
And I will
But like that February day
I will take your hand, squeeze it tightly and say
There's not another truck in the driveway
Your mom isn't going anywhere
Your mom will stay right here
Your mom isn't going anywhere
Your mom will stay right here
No matter what
I'll be here
When it feels so big
'til it all feels so small
When it feels so big
'til it all feels so small
’Til it all feels so small
Finale
(Original Broadway Cast)
EVAN (spoken)
Dear Evan Hansen,?
Today is going to be a good day. And here's why: because today, today at least you're you and—that's enough.?
COMPANY (sung)
All we see is sky for forever
We let the world pass by for forever
Feels like we could go on for forever this way
This way
All we see is light
Watch the sun burn bright
We could be alright for forever
This way
All we see is sky for forever
EVAN
All I see is sky for forever