Conan Gray - Superache Album Lyrics

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Movies

Movies, movies
I want a love like the movies

I look at you like you're perfect for me
If you are the diamond, then I am the ring
All of our friends think of us jealously
We're so sweet, so sweet
Built us a world and I gave you the key
Still can't believe that this isn't a dream
Falling in love with a damn fantasy
That's so me, so me

But I've been livin'
Life ain't fiction

In my head, we're dancing in the dark
In my head, we kiss under the stars
But we know that's not what we're doing
'Cause, baby, this ain't like the movies

Movies, movies
I want a love like the movies

We go to parties with people you know
We're holdin' hands but it's all just for show
'Cause Monday through Friday we both barely spoke
They don't know, they can't know
Like just on the drive here, I was lookin' through your texts
I was screamin' my damn head off how you still love your ex?
And you say that it's over, but why does she call you
At 3AM and 4AM? That's a funny way of stayin' friends

In my head, we're dancing in the dark
In my head, we kiss under the stars
But we know that's not what we're doing
'Cause, baby, this ain't like the movies
In my head, we never grow apart
In my head, you never break my heart
But we know that's not what we're doing
'Cause, baby, this ain't like the movies

Movies, movies
I want a love like the movies
Movies, movies
I want a love like the movies

Baby, we lost all this love that we have (movies, movies)
And I can't pretend that it'll never come back (I want a love like the movies)
And I think you're seeing right through me (movies, movies)
But, baby, this ain't like the movies

And I want a love like the movies

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People Watching

That wasn't funny, but she laughed so hard, she almost cried
They're countin' months they've been together, almost forty-nine
He's makin' fun of how she acted 'round the holidays
She wears a ring, but they tell people that they're not engaged
They met in class for metaphysical philosophy
He tells his friends, "I like her 'cause she's so much smarter than me"
They're having talks about their futures until 4AM
And I'm happy for them

But I wanna feel all that love and emotion
Be that attached to the person I'm holdin'
Someday I'll be fallin' without caution
But for now I'm only people watchin'

I'm only lookin' just to live through you vicariously
I've never really been in love, not seriously
I had a dream about a house behind a picket fence
Next one I choose to trust, I hope I use some common sense
But I cut people out like tags on my clothing
I end up all alone, but I still keep hoping

I wanna feel all that love and emotion
Be that attached to the person I'm holdin'
Someday I'll be fallin' without caution
But for now I'm only people watchin'

Cut people out like tags on my clothing
I end up all alone, but I still keep hoping
I won't be scared to let someone know me
Life feels so monotone, but I still keep hoping
Cut people out like tags on my clothing
I end up all alone, but I still keep hoping
I won't be scared to let someone know me
Life feels so monotone, but I still keep hoping

I feel love emotion

I wanna feel all that love and emotion
Be that attached to the person I'm holdin'
Someday I'll be fallin' without caution
But for now I'm only people watchin'

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Disaster

(Let me just) set the scene
I just left the party at Blake's and it's Halloween
Had the keys to my car in my hand, but I didn't leave
'Cause the potential of us, it was keepin' me up all night long
I left a text you won't read all night long

This could be a disaster, there's so many factors
Like, what if you freak out and then we're losin' it all
At the critical chapter where I say, "I love you"
And you don't say it after
This could be a disaster, I'm pedaling backwards
By saying that I'm drunk, I really shouldn't have called
I'm a little bit plastered, you call me a liar
Now I'm fallin' in faster
This could be a disaster

(Oh) disaster
(Oh) disaster

(Let me just) lose my mind
Is it purely platonic to call me, like, every night?
You know Ashley believes that there's somethin' between you and I
But if I'm readin' it wrong, man, it'd be better off if I died, oh
And if you're readin' the text all night long

This could be a disaster, there's so many factors
Like, what if you freak out and then we're losin' it all
At the critical chapter where I say, "I love you"
And you don't say it after
This could be a disaster, I'm pedaling backwards
By saying that I'm drunk, I really shouldn't have called
I'm a little bit plastered, you call me a liar
Now I'm fallin' in faster
This could be a disaster

(Oh) disaster
(Oh) disaster

Maybe I'm mistaken (oh)
You're not mine for takin' (oh)
Maybe I'm mistaken
Maybe I just made it up, messed it up

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Best Friend

Remember when you broke up with your f*cking ex?
God, I'm glad you've finally gotten over them
Only took about a hundred million texts
God, I swear that bitch was such a narcissist

Everybody knows I love you so, so, so, so much
'Cause every time they ask, I always tell, tell, tell, tell them

That's my f*ckin' best friend, that's my f*ckin' right hand
That's my f*ckin' throw-up-in-the-bathroom-but-still-love-them
That's my f*ckin' best friend, best friend
That's my f*ckin' best friend, best friend
That's my f*ckin' lifeline, that's my ride or die like
That's my f*ckin' hate-you-but-you-know-that-that's-a-damn-lie
Baby, you're my best friend, best friend
Baby, you're my best friend, best friend
Baby, you're my

Baby, you're my

Made a promise that I'm gonna marry you
If we're both still single by, like, thirty-two
And that shit is gonna end up bein' true
'Cause I hate, like, everyone except for you
Who else is gonna grocery shop with me at 2 AM?
Who else will take that picture for you just to get revenge?
You're just as psycho as me, just as sick inside the head
So when they ask, I've always said

That's my f*ckin' best friend, that's my f*ckin' right hand
That's my f*ckin' throw-up-in-the-bathroom-but-still-love-them
That's my f*ckin' best friend, best friend
That's my f*ckin' best friend, best friend
That's my f*ckin' lifeline, that's my ride or die like
That's my f*ckin' hate-you-but-you-know-that-that's-a-damn-lie
Baby, you're my best friend, best friend
Baby, you're my best friend, best friend
Baby, you're my

Baby, you're my

(Why do you keep calling me? You're kidding)
(What? Who? Are you kidding?)
(Oh my God)
(Oh, hey, no, no-no, don't respond)
(Don't respond, don't respond)
Baby, you're my
(Yeah, I'll be there in ten minutes)

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Astronomy

We drive through the woods
Rich neighborhoods to watch
We joked as we looked
That they were too good for us

'Cause socially speaking we were the same
With runaway fathers and mothers who drank
A tale old as time
Young love don't last for life

And now I know
Now I know
It's time to go
It's time to go

We've traveled the seas
We've ridden the stars
We've seen everything
From Saturn to Mars
As much as it seems
Like you own my heart
It's astronomy
We're two worlds apart
(It's astronomy)
We're two worlds apart
(It's astronomy)
We're two worlds apart

From far away
I wish I'd stayed with you
But here face to face
A stranger that I once knew

I thought if I wandered
I'd fall back in love
You said distance brings fondness
But guess not with us

The only mistake
That we didn't make
Was run
Now look what we've done

We've traveled the seas
We've ridden the stars
We've seen everything
From Saturn to Mars
As much as it seems
Like you own my heart
It's astronomy
We're two worlds apart
(It's astronomy)
We're two worlds apart

Stop tryna keep us alive
You're pointing at stars in the sky
That already died
Stop tryna keep us alive
You can't force the stars to align
When they've already died
Oh, we've died
Ooh

Oh, we've traveled the seas
We've ridden the stars
We've seen everything
From Saturn to Mars
As much as it seems
Like you own my heart
It's astronomy
We're two worlds apart

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Yours

I'm somebody you call when you're alone
I'm somebody you use but never own
I'm somebody you touch but never hold
And you're somebody I'll never really know
I know I'm not the one you really love
I guess that's why I've never given up
'Cause I could give you all you want, the stars and the sun
But still, I'm not enough

Oh, all I really wanted was that look in your eyes
Like you already know that I'm the love of your life
Like you already know you're never saying goodbye

But I'm not yours
I'm not yours
I'm not yours
I want more
I want more
But I'm not yours
And I can't change your mind
But you're still mine

So tell me that it's time for me to go
'Cause you know I can't do it on my own
The only thing that's harder than sleepin' alone
Is sleepin' with your ghost

Oh, all I really wanted was that look in your eyes
Like you already know that I'm the love of your life
Like you already know you're never saying goodbye

But I'm not yours
I'm not yours
I'm not yours
I want more
I want more
But I'm not yours
And I can't change your mind

I should've known that it was dumb love
Fifteen dozen roses
All the things that I've done
For you not to notice
Can't believe I chose you
Over all my best friends
What the f*ck did I do?
In the end
Just to not be yours

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Jigsaw

If changin' my clothes would make you like me more
If changin' my hair would make you care
Then I'd grab the kitchen scissors
And cut myself to slivers
For you
If being more polite would keep you satisfied
If being less insane would make you stay
Then I'd be more like my sister
Say, "Thank you, ma'am and mister"
To you, for you

I've changed every part of me
Until the puzzle pieces aren't me at all
I look in the mirror, now I'm just a jigsaw-aw
You take every part of me, all of the things you need
Then the rest, you discard
I look in the mirror, now I'm just a jigsaw-aw

All I did just to make you happy
Still, you don't even f*cking love me
(Jigsaw, jigsaw, jigsaw, jigsaw)
Killin' parts of myself to fit you
Clear as shit I was not the issue

If I made you like me, would I even like myself?
Pointin' out all my flaws doesn't help

Why don't you love me?
Don't you love me?

I've changed every part of me
Until the puzzle pieces aren't me at all
I look in the mirror, now I'm just a jigsaw-aw
You take every part of me, all of the things you need
Then the rest, you discard
I look in the mirror, now I'm just a jigsaw-aw

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Family Line

My father never talked a lot
He just took a walk around the block
'Til all his anger took a hold of him
And then he'd hit
My mother never cried a lot
She took the punches, but she never fought
'Til she said, "I'm leavin' and I'll take the kids"
So she did

I say they're just the ones who gave me life
But I truly am my parents' child

Scattered 'cross my family line
I'm so good at telling lies
That came from my mother's side
Told a million to survive
Scattered 'cross my family line
God, I have my father's eyes
But my sister's when I cry
I can run, but I can't hide
From my family line

It's hard to put it into words
How the holidays will always hurt
I watch the fathers with their little girls
And wonder what I did to deserve this
How could you hurt a little kid?
I can't forget, I can't forgive you
'Cause now I'm scared that everyone I love will leave me

Scattered 'cross my family line
I'm so good at telling lies
That came from my mother's side
Told a million to survive
Scattered 'cross my family line
God, I have my father's eyes
But my sister's when I cry
I can run, but I can't hide
From my family line
From my family line

Oh
All that I did to try to undo it
All of my pain and all your excuses
I was a kid, but I wasn't clueless
(Someone who loves you wouldn't do this)
All of my past, I tried to erase it
But now I see, would I even change it?
Might share a face and share a last name but
(We are not the same)

Scattered 'cross my family line
I'm so good at telling lies
That came from my mother's side
Told a million to survive
Scattered 'cross my family line
God, I have my father's eyes
But my sister's when I cry
I can run, but I can't hide
From my family line
From my family line, mm

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Summer Child

You see all the flowers in the weeds
You're scared of the dark when you sleep
You cover up your arms with your sleeves
Even in hundred-degree heat
Your father was awfully mean
Your favorite color is green
It reminds you of the summer you turned three
Runnin' through sprinklers on your street

And you laugh and you dance in the wind
And you sway and you hug and you kiss
But there's darkness behind those eyes
Even when you smile

Oh, summer child
You don't have to act like all you feel is mild
You don't really love the sun, it drives you wild
You're lyin', summer child

Aren't you way too busy
Taking care of everybody
To take care of yourself?
When the sun goes missing
Aren't the flowers just as pretty?
Aren't the oceans just as deep?
The trees as green?
And as for me
I'll watch you weep

Oh, summer child
You don't have to act like all you feel is mild
You don't really love the sun, it drives you wild
You're lyin', summer child

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Footnote

You said at the party that I was too drunk
I told you I liked you, you said, "Sober up"
But why would I lie? It's so clear I'm in love with you
A tense conversation, you like someone else
I say, "If I waited, could that maybe help?"
You told me that patience won't change how you felt for me

So I'll stop being pretentious and loathing our friendship
You taught me a lesson that love isn't precious
It's not like the novels, no Pride and Prejudice at all

So I'll just take a footnote in your life
And you could take my body
Every line I would write for you
But a footnote will do
A footnote will do

We ate at a restaurant, the hosts said we're cute
They think we're a couple, they bought us some booze
We shared the Moscato and laughed 'cause it's true to me
Oh, and I'd be embarrassed if I weren't so pleased
That everyone else sees what you never see
We're perfect together but I'll never be the one

So I'll stop being pretentious and loathing our friendship
You taught me a lesson that feelings are reckless
It's just like the novels, side characters end up alone

So I'll just take a footnote in your life
And you could take my body
Every line I would write for you
But a footnote will do
A footnote will do
A footnote will do

Please, don't forget me
Forget me
Please, don't forget me
Forget me (a footnote will do)
Please, don't forget me
Forget me
Please, don't forget me
Forget me
A footnote will do
A footnote will do
(Forget)
A footnote will do
A footnote will do

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Memories

One, two

It's been a couple months
That's just about enough time
For me to stop crying when I look at all the pictures
Now I kinda smile, I haven't felt that in a while
It's late, I hear the door
Bell ringing and it's pouring
I open up that door, see your brown eyes at the entrance
You just wanna talk and
I can't turn away a wet dog

But please don't ruin this for me
Please don't make it harder than it already is
I'm trying to get over this

I wish that you would stay in my memories
But you show up today, just to ruin things
I wanna put you in the past 'cause I'm traumatized
But you're not letting me do that, 'cause tonight
You're all drunk in my kitchen, curled in the fetal position
Too busy playing the victim to be listening to me when I say
"I wish that you would stay in my memories"
In my memories, stay in my memories

Now I can't say goodbye if you stay here the whole night
You see, it's hard to find an end to something that you keep beginning
Over and over again
I promise that the ending always stays the same
So there's no good reason in make believing that we could ever exist again

I can't be your friend, can't be your lover
Can't be the reason we hold back each other from falling in love
With somebody other than me

I wish that you would stay in my memories
But you show up today, just to ruin things
I wanna put you in the past 'cause I'm traumatized
But you're not letting me do that, 'cause tonight
You're all drunk in my kitchen, curled in the fetal position
Too busy playing the victim to be listening to me when I say
"I wish that you would stay in my memories"
In my memories, stay in my memories

Since you came
I guess I'll let you stay
For as long as it takes
To grab your books and your coat
And that one good cologne
That you bought when we were fighting
'Cause it's still on my clothes, everything that I own
And it makes me feel like dying
I was barely just surviving

I wish that you would stay in my memories
But you show up today, just to ruin things
I wanna put you in the past 'cause I'm traumatized
But you're not letting me do that, 'cause tonight
You're all drunk in my kitchen, curled in the fetal position
Too busy playing the victim to be listening to me when I say
"I wish that you would stay in my memories"
In my memories, stay in my memories

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The Exit

February, and the flowers haven't even wilted
It's crazy how fast you tilted
The world that we were busy buildin'
Mid-November, and I'm sippin' on a half-cold coffee
Starin' at a girl who's not me
On your arm, a carbon copy

Feels like we had matching wounds
But mine's still black and bruised
And yours is perfectly fine now
Feels like we buried a life
Something that never died
So God, it hurt when I found out

You love her, it's over
Do you even doubt it on your lips? (What do you say, say?)
You love her, it's over
You already found someone to miss
While I'm still standin' at the exit
I'm still standin' at the exit

I can't hate you for gettin' everything we wanted
I just thought that I would be part of it
I was movin' into your apartment
When you met someone, she's from your hometown
You hate the East Coast, it's where you live now
Impossible to understand how you're not comin' back
But I can't say it out loud

You love her, it's over
Do you even doubt it on your lips? (What do you say, say?)
You love her, it's over
You already found someone to miss
While I'm still standin' at the exit
I'm still standin' at the exit

Feels like we had matching wounds
But mine's still black and bruised
And yours is perfectly fine
Feels like we buried a life
Something that never died
So God, it hurt when I found out

You love her (feels like we had matching wounds)
It's over (but mine's still black and bruised)
Do you even doubt it on your lips? (And yours is perfectly fine now)
(What do you say, say?)
You love her (feels like we buried a life)
It's over (something that never died)
You already found someone to miss (so God, it hurt when I found out)

You love her, it's over
You already found someone to miss