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PATTERNS IN MY LIFE THAT I TRACE EVERY DAY
PATTERNS AS I SAY THE THINGS I ALWAYS SAY
PATTERNS IN THE CEILING AS I LIE AWAKE
WHY ARE PATTERNS HAUNTING EVERY MOVE I MAKE?

JUST LOOK, HERE I AM ON CUE, AGAIN
UPSET, FEELING TORN IN TWO, AGAIN
AFRAID, SAYING I'M OKAY
MAKING LITTLE JOKES
TILL I RUN AWAY, AGAIN

AND YET TODAY I AM NOT THE SAME
I FEEL MY LIFE SLIPPING FROM ITS FRAME
STRANGE FEELINGS RISE, FEELINGS WITH NO NAME
AND I CAN'T FACE THEM
SO I SHAKE THEM HARD
FOLD THEM UP
AND TUCK THEM SAFELY AWAY
AGAIN

PATTERNS THAT BEGIN AS I WALK THROUGH A DOOR
PATTERNS IN THE CURTAINS AND THE KITCHEN FLOOR
PATTERNS IN THE DAY'S ROUTINES I MUST ARRANGE
PATTERNS IN THE WAYS I TRY...BUT NEVER CHANGE

JUST LOOK, AS I'M THROWN A CURVE AGAIN
I LEAP, THEN I LOSE MY NERVE AGAIN
IN TEARS, RUNNING HOME I GO
SECRETLY RELIEVED
SAFE WITH WHAT I KNOW, AGAIN

AND YET I KNOW I AM NOT THE SAME
INSIDE MY HEART IS SOMETHING I CAN'T TAME
I FEEL MY MIND BURSTING INTO FLAME
AND I MUST CHANGE
OR ELSE I'LL BREAK APART
OR BREAK AWAY
AND END UP HAVING TO START
AGAIN

PATTERNS THROUGH THE DAY
I SEEM TO USE TO GIVE MY LIFE A SHAPE
PATTERNS THROUGH THE HOUSE
THAT GIVE ME COMFORT
WHEN I NEED ESCAPE
PATTERNS THAT LEAD ME NOWHERE
AT ALL.