D C R U Z - Kids With Toys Lyrics

Crying when I'm looking back
And I wish you were the person I needed
Yeah
Tell me what you put inside my drink
'Cause it's getting kinda hard to think
For myself, for myself
Your morals clouding
Heart won't stop pounding
'Cause we was just some kids with toys
Until we started sipping poison
Given to us by the blood of Christ our Lord
From dad and mom
Dad and momma, now they gone but
Not from this earth
Just my person
They can't get past all of my sins
Tried to teach, but they ain't listening
Stuck at sixteen
Frontal lobe? Nope, drugs
Somewhere in between you was just
Down on your luck
But I don't give a f*ck
When you're just playing victim
I'm growing up getting outta that system
Crying when I'm looking back
And I wish you were the person I needed yeah
I'm tired
'Cause I just can't sleep
Every time
You're hijacking my dreams
Maybe I'll give it one more prayer
God you hear this
Do you even give a shit 'bout me
Think fam's happy without me
Tell me where you at though
I been calling but
You no show
You've grown cold
I'm freezing
Emotions they leave me
I'm screaming at night
Fight or flight kicking in
Through all of these nightmares
I fear the funeral
Do I gotta go
Thought you were super-human
When I read the articles
Chapters, books, whatever
It's all so clever
Why you need a book to be so beautiful
You gonna answer
Tell me what your plans are
Nope? F*ck
No love
Why am I praying to a god I don't believe in
Committing family treason
Yet you the one that's leaving
Don't leave me
Don't leave me
Thought we were kids with toys
We was kids with poison ideals
"The ideal family unit
You see, God brings us together
Linked forever
Better not get caught up in those sinful ways
You know the path we paved
The only road to go down
Otherwise bitch I'll watch you drown
I'll hold you down myself"
You know what else
Anything that meant anything was simply
A way to manipulate me
I'm really f*cking glad I got outta there
'Cause I was living a life full of despair
Knowing that I had no chance
My soul was damned
What was your plan to save me
Crying
(I'm crying)
When I'm looking back
(For the person I needed the most, oh)
And I wish you were the person I needed yeah
I'm tired
(I'm so tired, I'm so tired)
'Cause I just can't sleep
(I just can't sleep without you)
Every time
(Every time, every time, yeah)
You're hijacking my dreams
Yeah