The Stupid Stupid Henchmen - Behind The Wheel On 84 East Lyrics

It sucks that I can't feel pain no more
Cuz I read the fortune and it told me so
But it doesn't mean that it's better for my health
Cuz I cut open my heart and it spilled out the truth
For a second I felt divine
Like I was closer to being part of the sky
But the blood was right and it put me to sleep
Behind the wheel on 84 east
You always said that I was too shallow to see the truth
But I'm up to my neck in my own lies
That's why I decided to cut the tie
Forget me now without the drugs
Yer only lying to yerself but f*ckin you up
So pick up yer feet when yer crossing the tracks
Cuz its yer own luck yer f*ckin with

I cloak myself in blood to hide the anger that I hate so much of me
Cuz I can't handle feeling more and more that this is my own fault
I'm giving it up n hoping that there is and evil side down there for me
I've lost the motive to succeed so I'm ending this game to find out what I need
And when the sun comes up I nail boards against the windows to keep me shut
What the f*ck is going on I'm not following shit to get along
Keep checking on my pulse cuz the air is cold and it's the perfect day to die
I'm not acting out I'm just freeing my mind

I've tested my luck way too much
Playing Russian roulette without giving a f*ck
God does it feel like I'm gambling my life
For selling my soul while I was under the knife
And it seems this shit is just piling up higher
and I'm losing focus on my true desire
But that's the game that I play when I'm in the dumps,
I act like it's cool but I don't give a f*ck
And stop blaming me for not feeling your pain
I told you once before that I blew my f*ckin brains away
I'm hiding away everything that I use
And I'm consuming the problems that I had when it started
I wish I had a motive to go with
But I'm just feeding of yer grin that you use to lie

I tried to get a grip on life
But I'm just f*ckin sitting here all day
The comfort of my own home
Has become a prison cell and locked me in alone